BPD is also known as emotionally unstable personality disorder and there are two types: borderline type and impulsive type, I have the borderline type. Which is a cluster-B personality disorder, this means a person with this disorder displays behavioural and emotional problems with instability, problems forming interpersonal relationships, issues with identity and self-image. Personality disorders are extensive and defined through inflexible patterns of maladaptive inner experiences and pathological behaviour.
Having been diagnosed at 18 after displaying signs as young as 15 Charlotte did not understand or even know what this “disorder” was? It was only in her late twenties when she was unable to rely on drugs, alcohol and reckless behaviour to mask her inner turmoil and just blamed her lifestyle for her behaviour. As well as self denial there was no information or treatment offered to Charlotte so she just swept it under the carpet with her PTSD and Dissociative Disorder. However all this sweeping just made her mental health worse and soon she started developing more mental illnesses due to the avoidance. Now having agoraphobia, Generalised Anxiety disorder and OCD as a consequence adopting unhealthy ways of coping with her pain and instability.
Charlotte has been using art as a therapy since being hospitalised in a psychiatric unit at the age of 15. Although stopping the practice during her avoidance phase, Charlotte still used some form of creative therapy: writing poetry and journaling when unable to afford painting materials. Saying “I could always find a piece of paper and a pen, allowing me some freedom of mind”.
“Now I use my art in all its forms to express my journey and how BPD affects me, allowing more dialogue and engagement regarding this misunderstood illness as well as inspiring others to talk about their own experiences and hopefully encourage people to use a creative outlet when managing their illness or aiding in recovery”.